Tired

If I had to be completely honest with myself… I’m tired… I’m tired… it’s not a physical tired… it’s a very … you know … it’s in the soul… it’s like… I’m fucking tired… I’m tired of going through this shit… I’m tired… tired of everything not working out… I’m just like… I fucking tried… and … it’s a … I can’t not lie and say it’s not a … it’s not like you don’t wanna live kind of thing, it’s more of a… If God was sitting across from you right now, there would be a part of me that would just wanna go up to him and say ‘listen… I’m done… I’m done… I’m not… I can’t do this anymore… I’m just… I’m fucking physically and mentally spent… and I’m done… and… It’s a … it’s a silent battle too… it’s a battle we kinda hide from the world, and from the people we love, and the people we wanna love or want to love us because… who wants a broken person… you know… it’s like… if they knew… like… if the people in your life knew how broken we were… like… would they stay? And that raises the question of like… how do I fix this? Can you fix this? I don’t know…