Erro - Parte III (Final)

Continuando para o fim deste pequeno grande erro, já nos 11 meses de namoro eu comecei a sentir revolta, ainda mais, com o que se estava a passar... eu queria discutir, queria mostrar que estava vivo e tinha algo para dar, e não o podia fazer, pois continuava distante e muito pouco correspondido... e constantemente era assombrado pela hipótese de acabar logo com esta treta de namoro... então numa noite, das imensas que discutimos, eu decidi dar um tempo... no dia a seguir decidi sair, embebedar-me para esquecer e estive com outra pessoa… no momento soube-me bem, ter aquele prazer que não tinha há muito tempo e sentir-me vivo…

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One more game
It's time to play
Play with me
Come play my way
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It's no more Mr. Nice Boy
No playing home ground
I'm not the same boy
You never rocked my world
You used me
Tried to abused me
Fanned a life of fantasy
Now back to reality
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(How Dramatic)
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The truth that lies can't hide
I'm not by your side
But your drumming your drummer
Run and tell your two best friends
See if they can save you
When I'm not around you
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(So Dramatic)
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No ... You're not the one I thought you were
Now there's another ringing my bell
I'm under that spell
You're too dramatic
Understand it's over!
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Baby, fuck you
The things you did, I never thought I'd get a clue
You wanted me to be that faithful to you
Not let nobody's body touch my body in position that we only knew
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Now I'm gonna give them what they want ... and more
Do all those explicit things that I told you "NO"
Places you couldn't go
You know where I'm talking
You're too dramatic
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Understand... It's over

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Foi uma noite bastante agradável, mas na manhã seguinte estive constantemente assombrado com a sensação de arrependimento e os meus sentimentos por o meu namorado ainda se sentiam, e resolvi voltar para ele, desta vez optei por outra postura, optei por encostar-me, desinteressar-me, se ele corresse atrás de mim, daria certo, senão, ao menos esta sensação de deixar levar, mais cedo ou mais tarde levar-me-ia o sentimento embora e eu acabaria também por me desinteressar, estava portanto a deixar tudo nas mãos dele…foram muitas as unhas ruídas e cabeçadas na parede para me conter com perguntas sobre o que ele andava a fazer, para não mandar mensagens ou fazer telefonemas, por não meter conversa no msn… e deixei-me ir…

Há momentos na nossa vida em que temos de optar pelo que metemos à frente nos nossos objectivos, o amor, a felicidade, ou o profissionalismo e uma boa carreira; ou então podemos optar por não cegar para atingir um deles e tentar conciliar os dois… ele não estava em sintonia comigo nisso.

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Do you like this?
This place...
That I'm bringing you to
'Cause I do
Oh My God!
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I know this place
It's still a secret
And I don't think you've ever been
It's kinda hard
To find the entrance
You need some juice but you love
It once you get in
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This Special Place it's in the
Basement
You have to work your way around
The place is hot and there is
Pumpin'
So are you ready to go down?!
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So it's over to you now!
You! It's over to you now!
Can't you see what I'm thinkin'
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If you behave you might be chosen
Just read the flayer and it tells you
How to get there.
And when you come you might be
Stunned yeah
So baby what you waiting for?
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Oh my God!!
Don't you know... This Place ... Is my Heart...

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E eis que o derradeiro final acaba por chegar… apesar de haver aquele carinho especial que ficou de uma grande relação de namoro, já não havia a chama, pelo menos da minha parte para isto continuar, pois segundo ele, ele amava-me só que do jeito dele. Para mim estava bem claro que tinha de me focar em novos objectivos, definir novas prioridades, e definitivamente pensar em mim. Sem muitas forças e ainda cabisbaixo era o que tinha de fazer nos dias que se seguiriam. E principalmente reaver todos os meus amigos dos quais me tinha afastado.

O desejo de algo novo misturado com a saudade que ainda guardava dentro de mim originavam por vezes sentimentos e sensações totalmente caóticas… a loucura e a melancolia apoderavam-se de mim, e por vezes as bezanas e a dança eram as minhas únicas escapatórias…

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There's to much of this noise
You ... Let's get a seat
So you can talk sweet to me
I see these other persons
Won't you get me at the dance
floor?
Maybe like, buy me drinks...
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Movin' so sexy
But you ... I wonder why
We could have some fun, so don't be shy
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Baby, just enjoy
What's on your mind
Party and have a good time
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It's getting hectic in here
It's getting chaotic
I'm rockin' and rollin'
No stoppin'
We're goin' until it's over
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Do you like the way I rock it?
YOU ... I think it's so chaotic!!
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Ohhh ! I'm wild, I'm on fire
(Burnin' up the dance floor)
Turn it up higher, wild like a tiger
(Tell me, do you want more?)
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Everybody, blink your lights
Party from the left to right
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There's too much of this sound
I'm on the prowl
So please, don't turn me down
I'm having so much fun
And being done, I'm gonna tell you now
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The D.J. is my friend, so let's begin
I'm gonna do my dance until the end
Baby just get down
Let's paint the town
Everybody here's getting wild
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Look at what you do to me
Melt it down for all to see
I can't help it
No, I can't
Burn it down so we can dance
Look at what you made me do
I can't get enough of you
Turn me in and turn me out
Just don't put the fire out!

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Serei sempre apologista de que o tempo tudo resolve, tudo leva, e nada como ter boas amizades e algumas distracções para tudo ir ao lugar incluindo as ideias. E tudo se foi orientando de novo. Um dia dei por mim a pensar no estado em que me encontrei durante Um ano inteiro em que estive com ele, e na sensação de alívio em que me encontrava agora, era inigualável.

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Don't go knock on my door
Time is up
No more cheat n' lie
No more tears to dry
You and I, we're like so "bye bye"
Finally
I am over you
Totally unblue
And I can hear myself saying
I am better off without you
Stronger than ever and I
I'm tellin' you now
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Don't go knockin' on my door
Gotta stay away for sure
You say you miss me like crazy now
But I ain't buyin' that
You better get off my back
Don't go knockin' on my door
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I can see
It's no mystery
It's so clear to me
What we had is all history
It's OK
I can sleep at night
It will be alright
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Don't go knockin' on my door!!!!

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Eu poderia repetir que não me importo mesmo com esta pessoa, não lhe desejo mal nenhum, foram bons e maus momentos que passámos juntos; eu aprendi com ele e ele comigo, e foi uma experiência que contribuiu para me engrandecer como pessoa. Agora pessoas como ele, eu não quero ter no meu leque de amigos mesmo.

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They couldn't believe I did it
But I was so committed
My life was so restricted for you
(For you)
I just dove inside it blind
Couldn’t see what swam inside
Thought that'd be romantic for you
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On my ledge, prepare to fall
Even screaming, damn it for you
(Remember)

My friends said you would play me
But I just said they're crazy
While I was crying, frantic
Was it true
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Why should I be sad?
Heaven knows
From the stupid freaking things that you do
(Stupid freaking things)
Why should I get mad, feel sad
Who knows?
Just take it all
As a sign that we're through
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Goodbye
It's time for me to move along
(Goodbye)
It's time for me to get it on
(Okay)
I'm tired of singing sad songs
(Alright)
It's time for me
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I thought what could separate us
But it just seemed that Lisbon
Only brought the playa outta you
(Hey baby, what's your name) (...you said)
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Lavish homes and fancy cars
Even got the drop Ferrari
Filled up our garage for you
Made your choice with all the teams
People, Lemons, Magazines
Tell me who'd I do that for, who?
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And don't you worry about our angels
(All the magazines trying to intervene
Saying things in the gossip section)
They’ll get good guidance
And be trained well
Don't worry, I'll keep our little secret
When I ask this question
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Yeah
Baby, come on

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